PuBLiC SerVicE AnNounCeMenT

Watz up ya'all.. juz to inform ya'all, i've changed my blog.. you can visit my new blog through the link 'DeadKnight Herry' at FRENZ BLOG on the right of this blog.. Sorry for any inconvinience cause.. thanx ya'all.. Peace and Rock on..

ScReaMinG InFiDeLiTieS

Irritated to talk about the East Coast overnite cycling.. if i talk about it, i will be piss.. go Joan blog and read to know e main activities that we did there.. other than that, its for me to know and for you to find out.. Anyway, lots of people are sad nowadays.. why oh why.. it is like a contagious disease spreading from one person to another in just a short time.. come on!! where is the love.. angeline, joan, pei shi and etc.. pei shi, if you reading this, please cheer up ya.. time is just too short to be wasted on sadness when u can taste happiness.. if u just try.. so figure out and solve the problem.. dont delay it cause noone can solve it for you but yourself.. and if you need comfort, you can count on the class ya.. you know we care for you.. you'll never walk alone.. and this goes to Joan too.. just wait ya Joan.. he will someday wake up and realise what he miss out on.. a cute, understanding, reliable and not forgetting strong (lol) girl and thats you Joan.. even if he dont, hes stupid cause i believe one day you will get a guy who appreciate ur greatness.. and by that time, its too late for him.. people like him will only realise how important a person is to them till the person is gone.. and they deserve to taste the bitterness.. cause they take things for granted.. they think that they are too good for us.. but they'll someday know that we have somethings better than them.. so dont worry so much.. just live life as it is.. and to all of you out there.. be happy and smile always.. cause whoever that is making you sad is not worth it.. if they are so important and the source of your happiness, think twice.. they should not make u sad in the first place.. so let it burn or just compromise about it.. dont stress yourself when the person dont think that what they are doing are making you sad.. you all are torturing yourselves.. i know its hard to forget unhappiness.. slowly but surely it can be overcome.. so dont let sadness linger in ur head always.. cause you never know how long u gonna live.. and i'm sure you all wanna die happy.. lol.. so the conclusion.. Love sucks.. but thats how it goes in life..

I'm missing you bad

I never sleep

avoiding the spots we have to meet

and this bottle of sadness is making me mad

I'm cuddling close

To blankets and sheets

but you're not alone and you're not discreet

make sure i know whos taking you home

I'm reading your message over again

Theres not a word that i comprehend

except when you sign off

'we will be around for each other forever'

I'm missing you laugh

how did it break?

and when did your eyes begin to look fake?

I hope you're as happy as you're pretending

I am alone in my defeat

i wish i know you're safely at home

Well as for now i'm gonna hear the saddest songs

and sit alone and wonder

how you're making out

But as for me i wish that i was anywhere with anyone

who treasures me....

BroKeN

Something isn't right.. i can feel it again.. this isnt the first time.. that you left me waiting.. sad excuses and false hopes high.. i saw this coming still i dont know why i let you in.. so take ur empty words and broken promises.. and all the time you stole coz i'm done with this.. i can give it away.. i'm doing everything i should have.. and now i'm making a change, i'm living the day.. i'm giving back what you gave me coz i dont need anything.. i knew it all along.. you're so predictable.. i knew something would go wrong.. so you dont have to call.. or say anything at all.. Everywhere i go, everyone i meet, everytime i try to fall in love , they all want to know why i'm so broken.. why am i so cold.. why i'm so hard inside.. why am i scared.. what am i afraid of.. i dont even know.. this story's never had an end.. i've been waiting,searching and hoping.. i've been dreaming you would come back.. but i know the ending of this story.. you're never coming back.. NEVER.. everywhere i go for the rest of my life is so predictable.. everyone that i love and everyone that i care about, they all gonna want to know what's wrong with me.. and i know what it is.. i'm ending this right now..

I wanted you to know

that i love the way you laugh

I wanna hold u high and steal your pain away

I keep your photograph

I know it serves me well

I wanna hold you tight and keep you here with me

Coz i'm broken when i'm open

and i dont feel like i am strong enough

Coz i'm broken when i'm lonesome

and i dont feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away......

You dont feel me here......

AnymorE.............

ThE ReBirTh

The Rebirth.. The Reincarnation.. The Resurrection.. whatever u call it.. i'm Back.. left everything behind me.. whats past is past.. sick and tired of being sick and tired.. now things have change.. but somethings still stays in my heart though.. k anyway, more relaxing yet exciting life now.. with angeline frawley diyana simran sammy dilys by ma side.. great bunch of people.. mixture of race n religion.. dunnoe what happen to jun xiong.. and also the rest.. maybe just dont share the same interest n topics like the rest of us.. well hope they are doing fine.. guess its true what people say, nothing last forever.. whatever it is, life still have to go on..
Hmm btw had a great time just now.. lol.. me, faezah, angeline, frawley, dilys and kelvin loy went to grassroot club during the 5hrs break.. had a damn fun time.. new games available there.. even kelvin loy join in the fun.. lol.. we all team up play the music game.. play the hyper mode.. whoa we pro.. good coordination.. completed the game.. haha cheers.. we all play2 there till exhausted.. then go back school.. went for lesson and then went home.. duh!!!

I've lost my innocence, and i'm a stranger, a life changer

I'm a man thats not afraid of danger

I walk my own path, and blaze my own trail

Because i'm not afraid to derail

I wont get in line or be a middle man

So F**K you i make my own plans

And i got RESPECT and i dont neglect

The people who are here who came to protect

Am i a failure if i got nothing to lose

No, i'm not a failure, I got something to prove..

I'm not listening, not anymore..

Its time to live my life

Go ahead, i know i'm right

I'm gonna lay it on the line

Put yourself in my shoes

Would you stand up for your rights

Line em up and knock em down

I'm not running scared tonight..

Does it run in your blood to betray the friends you have!!!

GoTTa LeT iT BuRn

Since the day that you dissed me, i'm feeling so pathetic.. coz the gals,well they've ditched me and its all because of, you and your friends are laughing at me now.. you've turned me down coz i got no car and i got no money.. you think that i'm nothing.. ask angeline what you're missing.. Maybe you think that you're too good for me.. someday when you get home you're gonna see.. i've got something better than you.. the whole world was watching and laughing on the day you dissed me.. they were watching on the day that i CRASH AND BURN AT YOUR FEET...
Are you aware of what you make me feel.. right now i feel invisible to you.. like i'm not real.. Heres what i have to say.. i was left to cry there.. waiting outside there grinning with the last stare and thats when i decided why should i care.. coz you werent there when i was scared.. i was so alone.. why should i care coz you dont care and we're not going anywhere.. i started to trip and i losing my grip but you still werent there.. i've LOSE MY GRIP..
Lets talk this over, its not like i'm dead.. was it something i did.. was it something i said.. dont leave me hanging in a class so dead.. held up so high on such a breakable thread.. You got your friends.. i know what they say.. they tell you i'm difficult but so are they.. but they dont know me.. do they even know you.. All the things you hide from me.. all the shit that you do.. you were all the things i thought i knew and i thought we could be.. Its nice to know that you were there.. Tanx for ACTING like you cared and making me feel like i was the only one.. its nice to know i had it all.. tanx for watching as i fall.. and now i know that we're done..You were everything that i wanted.. we were meant to be supposed to be but we've lost it.. and all of the memories so close to me just fade away.. All this time you were PRETENDING.. so much for my HAPPY ENDING..
See gal.. its burning me to hold onto this.. i know this is something i gotta do.. but that doesnt mean i want to.. what i'm trying to say is that i love you.. though i know that everything is gone.. so its better for me to let it go now.. than hold on and hurt myself.. deep down i know its best for myself but i hate the thought of you being with someone else but i know that its over and i know that it WAS through.. its gonna burn for me to say this.. but its coming from my heart.. I'm twisted coz one side of me is telling me that i need to move on.. on the other side i wanna break down and cry.. but GOTTA LET IT BURN..

I DonT waNNa KnoW

Whats past is past.. dont wish to continue from where i stop last time.. coz its not worth saying.. i'll keep everything inside.. Broken Friendship(You've lost my respect) and feelings for her(All was a Lie).. coz one word summarise it all.. Gone.. see ya all soon.. tanx for reading my blog this past weeks.. Peace and Rock on ya'all.. \m/
You're hiding something coz its burning through your eyes.. I try to get it out but all i hear from you are lies.. You insist to pull me down.. you contradict the fact that you, still want me around.. Your good intentions slowly turns into bitterness.. And its ALL DOWNHILL FROM HERE..
Ohh LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE, you've made a fool of everyone.. ohh well it seems like such fun until u lose wat you had won..
Somebody said she saw you.. the person you were holding wasnt me.. and i would never ask you.. i just keep it to myself.. I dont need to know the truth.. Just keep it to yourself.. Go on and do your thing and never come back to me.. i dont wanna know where your whereabouts or how you moving.. i know when you're in the house or when you're cruising.. its been proven my love you abusing.. i cant understand how a man got you choosing.. undecided i came and provided.. my undivided you came and deny it,why.. dont even try it i know when you're lying.. i'm not applying any pressure.. just wanna let you know, that i dont wanna let you go.. i dont wanna let you leave.. but it is inevitable.. I DONT WANNA KNOW.. if you're playing me, keep it on the low.. coz my heart cant take it anymore.. and if you're creeping please dont let it show.. ohh gal, I DONT WANNA KNOW..

Here WiThouT YoU

Ok.. Long time never post.. Flashback time.. starting wif 2nd Sept.. hmm had a barbeque with my class Bm0411 at East Coast Park.. kinda sucky coz only 10+ odd ppl came.. Even she never came.. but its ok la.. at least those who came had some fun.. some only.. haha and its during the buying food time.. haha.. we hired bikes to go and buy the food.. haha i rode a double pedal bike with Bee Leng.. Sorry ah!!!! not experience with it.. haha.. keep stopping n stopping.. haha.. we all had fun la.. go NTUC buy all the stuffs.. hmm then came back.. Joan and my Mummy (Jia Xin) was setting up the fire.. so poor thing.. haha..their hands was so black.. but must thank them for doing it.. then start loh the barbequeing.. Joan ah!!.. basket.. ask me help.. i go there.. haven even help she say 'ok no need.. u dunnoe how to cook'.. hahaha.. wat the heill.. then at the end of the day she say i never offer help.. haha.. nvm..Good guys finish last.. ahakz.. whoa the breeze that day exceptionally good sia.. whoa love it.. if only she was there.. duh? .. ahakz.. actually the rest of the time was quite boring.. just barbequing all the time.. Cheryl, Mummy and Joan were the one cooking and cooking and cooking.. haha.. Thank You la hor.. Mummy very good.. cook for me.. haha.. i sit there shake leg play guitar.. then that stupid Jun Xiong kick the soccerball anyhow, fly to the sea.. i must go take.. shoe so wet.. wat the heilll!!! then pity Kang an.. he was lost for 2 hours.... in Singapore.. muahaha.. came so late.. haha.. we didnt do any activities loh.. only eat and eat.. then after that all go home.. say want to overnite.. all fako.. haha.. only me Jun Xiong and Kelvin stayed.. we night cycle sia..Jun Xiong blade.. From one corner to another..But couldnt cycle in peace loh.. haha that Jun Xiong ah complain alot sia leg pain.. stop alot of time.. haha.. but nvm la.. then we decided to go sit along the seashore and talk about the days of our lives.. with the cool breeze and music of the waves creating the beautiful ambience around us.. we had great interaction.. know each other better.. we called ourselves the JJJ.. if you wonder why.. its for us to know and for you to find out.. Good luck to them.. then Jun xiong go sleep loh.. sian.. haha.. me and Kelvin go cycle instead.. cycling through the breeze.. till dawn breaks.. then we two took photos at the jetty there.. we look so cool.. naturally cool guys.. haha.. then we went back wake Jun Xiong up.. haha.. and guess what.. we went 7 Eleven to buy breakfast then we decided to go morning cycling for two hours till 12.. haha.. had a great time sia.. we went so far.. then came back.. after that we all head home.. Had a fun time with those guys.. Yeah!!! hope to do it again in future.. maybe the rest can join us next time.. including her..
Cant believe it.. i slept from the time i came home from the overnite till saturday morning.. but in between got wake up awhile.. coz she msg me.. shes a sweet girl la i tell u.. n thats for me to noe why.. then on saturday and sunday nothing much.. slack at home.. but kinda miserable at home.. its been a week since i saw her.. flashes of her beautiful face runs in my mind always.. missing her too much.. if only she could appear right infront of me for a few seconds for me to be mesmorised by her beauty..but that wont be enough.. i hope i can see her forever.. i'll never get enough of her.. but it is all an illusion.. Fortunately it is all gonna end.. i'll be seeing her later today.. coz i'm missing her like crazy right now.. cant wait to see her in class.. seeing her sweet smile blows me away everytime.. and always makes my day.. so i better go sleep now.. so that time will past by swiftly.. and at least i can see her in my dream again..When i go school later today, hope shes there..coz the sight of her beauty is like heaven.. words just cant describe it..
The past few days have made me older since the last time that i saw your pretty face.. all the miles that seperates.. disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face.. everything i know.. and anywhere i go.. it gets hard but it wont take away my love.. when the last one falls.. and when its all said and done.. it gets hard but it wont take my love away.. i'm here without you.. but you're still on my lonely mind.. i think about you and i dream about you all the time.. i'm here without you princess but you're still with me in my dreams.. and tonight its only you and me..

MiSeRy

Life is such a funny thing.. You never know what it'll bring.. you know i'm just taking it day by day.. For you it comes so easily.. For me it's just a fantasy.. Coz nothing, nothing ever comes my way.. You do just what you wanna do.. Everybody wants to be with you.. It's something that i just dont understand.. I dont believe you know what you got.. and that's what puts me over the top.. I'm running, running just as fast as i can.. I see you there, i watch you fly.. If i could be you, i would touch the sky.. But here i am and There you are.. Don't you know it's driving me so crazy.. I think i'm going crazy, cant take it anymore.. got one thing in mind all the time and it's driving me crazy.. I don't know what i'm doing.. I just cant take your grace in my face coz it's driving me crazy..
I cry myself to sleep again tonight.. Coz i cannot hold you tight.. i wish that i could see you again tomorrow.. To take all this sorrow, i'm hallow.. When i touch you, can you feel it.. When i need you, can you be there.. When i look in your eyes, can you see me.. When i fall, will you catch me.. These tears on my face are for you.. i wish that i could hold you.. Feel you.. My heart is bleeding.. cant you see.. I wish that you could hold me and feel me.. Misery is what i feel when you're not around so i cant heal.. Misery is what i feel..
When i think of you, i dont know what to do.. when will i see you again.. You are all that i need.. You are all that i want.. Cant you see how i feel.. Cant you see that my pains so real.. When i think of you.. I'm confused.. I miss you like crazy every minute of everyday.. Girl i'm so down when your love's not around.. I miss you like crazy...
You're always in my mind.. Everyday i think of how you'll shine.. Let it go or hang on tight.. Stay forever or stay for one more night.. either way i feel the same thing for you.. The feeling inside is ten stories high..

ThE ReaSoN

Feeling blue, well i'm trying to forget the feeling that i miss you.. Feeling green, when the jealousy swells and it wont go away and dreams.. Feeling yellow, i'm confused inside, a little hazy but mellow.. Feeling red, when u spend all your time with your friends and not me instead.. Feeling black, when i think about all of the things that i feel i lack.. Feeling jaded, when its not gone right, all the colours are faded.. when i feel your eyes on me, feeling fine, its sublime, when that smile of yours creeps into my mind.. Nobody told me it feels so good.. Nobody said you would be so beautiful.. Nobody warned me about your smile.. You're the light.. When i close my eyes.. i'm colourblind..
I've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be.. A reason to start over new.. and the reason is You.. I've found a reason for me to show a side you didnt know.. A reason for all that i do and the reason is you..